how i spend my christmas..

so...ALOT of you guys have been asking me, "HOW WAS YOUR CHRISTMAS?" :) .. well i can say that its pretty, DEPRESSING lol, the most BORING christmas i've ever spend, ahhh may be the last one too!!! since 2012 is coming up :/ well yea, my Christmas was NOT what i wanted, i didnt get any presents from anyone, well christmas eve was kinda good to me LOL so heres my story:

CHRISTMAS EVE:

i thought i was having the WORST DAY OF MY LIFE!! with stomach cramps and MY phone wasnt working propertly!! so i was on bed the whole day, NOT feeling well!! and i was like oh gawd could this day get any worst!!?!? LIKE NO ONE ASKED ME OUT OR ANYTHING!! so then my dad fixed my phone and stuff, and thank god it works!!! :D so i was like okayy this day is getting better i think...then i got a text :) it was from KAISER!! a friend who i havent hang out with or talked to ever since high school...i was REALLY happy, so he asked if i wanna hang out, so i went out to watch ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNK with him hehehe it was so cute and all and he paid, AND I DIDNT NOT KNOW IT WAS JUST ME AND HIM!!! o.O i thought it would be awkward and all...but IT WASNT :)) i actually talked to him alot and laughed alot :) hehe ohh the old feelings came back, and i could NOT stop smiling :) well then i went home and thought about it, and i backed out. but ANYWAYS that was my christmas eve, i did not know im going to spend it with him :D hehe.

Christmas day:

so christmas day, i got alot of texts from friends saying "MERRY CHRISTMAS" well merry christmas to you too :D and thanks for those of you who sent me text :) it really warms my heart!! and well...the day was okay, went out to eat lunch with cousins, then my mom had to go to work, and my dad is tired so he took a nap, and my sister is being herself like any other days PLAYING maplestory. So i'm all alone at home, COOKING instant noodle myself and watching Santa Claus 1,2, and 3....its what i do EVERY Christmas :) so yup i was all alone, and yes that was my Christmas. and it wasnt what i planned to be or planned to be doing. :/

love

favorite season: WINTER

why?..heres why:

strangers again?

Dear Josh,
I don't hate you, but after i've given you so many chances and you still hurt me continuously, i don't know what i should do. You tell me then. I always have to go things your way to make you happy, but can't you sacrafice a LITTLE?!!? and let me say something? it really hurts...how the way you treated me when i have given you all my love. i really never LOVED anyone as much as i loved you. I don't wanna be "strangers again", no matter how much you hurt me, i don't know why i still feel an urge to not give up on you and believed that you will change...will you? i really don't know, you tell me then. Can we shake hands and be friends?

finally

so it is finally the day we've all been waiting for, [winter break] YAYY!! i REALLY hope i pass my eng and anatomy class cuz i do not wanna waste my time taking it again, this semester had been really hard to me. I keep seeing people dropping everyday in my class, but i still stick to it and stay strong, cuz giving up isnt my thing. i hope i made the right choice :)

and for this winter break, i doubt i'm gonna get any class, so i will need to work!!! i DESPERATELY need a job! i really wanna work so badly, so i don't have to be bored at home, and i really want to get experiences. so i hope i find one :) wish me luck, ima go job hunting hehe

trying..

okay, i'm really trying to make it WORK!! i text you everyday not worrying about you not text back and stuff. but when you do, you totally ignored my text and change into a whole new subject and you only ask me question. is this going back to the way it is? really? REALLY NOW?..

i only give you "good morning/good night" text and YOU cant even say ONE SINGLE GOOD MORNING OR GOOD NIGHT BACK? really? WOW THATS REALLY RUDE!! its not hard at all either =___= mah goodness. i dont even know why i havent give up. i'm really stupid and naive.

COME ON, PRIVACY!?!?

a heartwarming movie

so this is my 15th time watching this japanese movie called "10 promises to my dog"

if you guys havent watch it yet, PLEASE watch it, its a VERY good movie. I GUARANTEE YOU, YOU WILL ALL CRY! even if you're not a "crying" person when watching a movie like me LOLOL

i promise you this is a veryyyyy good movie. it touches me deeply!!!

it's a touching story of a girl and her dog,

and described how the dog became her pet, friend, and part of her family after her mom past away.

a dog's life will last around 10-15 years, so please cherish your time with your dog,

it'll be gone before you know it.
It is a touching story of a girl and her dog.It described how the dog became her pet, her friend and part of the family.A dog's life will last around 10 to 15 years.In this movie, is somehow like describing how the dog spend his 10 years with the girl and the family.It is a touching story of a girl and her dog.It described how the dog
became her pet, her friend and part of the family.A dog's life will last
around 10 to 15 years.In this movie, is somehow like describing how the
dog spend his 10 years with the girl and the family.

10 promises:

1. Give me time to understand what you want of me.

2. Place your trust in me. Is crucial to my well being.

3. Be aware that however you treat me I’ll never forget.

4. Before you scold me for being lazy, ask yourself if something might be bothering me.

5. Talk to me sometimes. Even if I don’t understand your words,I do understand your voice when you speak to me.

6. Remember before you hit me, I have teeth that could hurt you,but that I choose not to bite you.

7. Take care of me when I get old.

8. You have your work, your entertainment, and your friends. I have only you.

9. My life is likely to last 10 to 15 years, any separation from you will be painful to me.

10. Go with me on difficult journeys, everything is easier for me if you are there.

Remember I love you…

Friends :)

makes me happy :)

HIIIII!!!

okaay gonna go back to blogging LOL now that i'm not so busy anymore :)

i still love you

after a week or two of not talking to you

i know something is missing

you're missing from my life... :/

i feel like i give up too fast...

should i not give up?

because some people told me, if you want attention from them, you give them less attention...

i think it's working, i have not talk to you

but you will randomly text me :)

which gives me mix emotions of mad/happy..

mad because i'm trying to forget you but you keep making it harder for me

happy because you texted me :)

picture explains it all :D

rainy days

rainy days makes me miss you, i wish there will be a guy who would make hot chocolate for me :) with marshmallows!! and someone to cuddle with...

just friends :)

Thats it boy...you want to be friend right? Aiight, ill be a friend to you, i honestly dont even feel anything for you now, cuz you killed it. So there you go, im your friend now, im officially done.

I'm just a simple girl...

I'm just a simple girl who wants to be loved, and friendships. I have a very fragile heart, and can get sad easily, i admit, i'm not strong. I am a very forgiving person. All you need to say is say a simple word "sorry" then i'll forgive you, because i believe in second chances, i believe you'll fix your mistake, i will never give up on you, even if you don't fix your mistake, i'm sure one day you will, so i keep giving you chances. HOWEVER, if i keep giving you chances and YOU keep pushing me away and ignore those chances and continue to take me for granted, YOU'RE DONE. i LOVE giving surprises to my friends and tell them everyday that i love them and miss them, and i'm not just saying it cuz i want to, i say it cuz deep in my heart i REALLY love my friends and miss them to DEATH! they are everything to me, AND super important like a family. My friends ARE my family. and i also dont expect things in return from them, i don't expect them to say "i love you" to me or "i miss you" to me, because i love surprises, it's just expecting things in return....isn't that special, you know what i mean? it's like making them say it, like it's not from their heart, they just say it cuz you said it to them. But if you really shows that its from your heart and give me something back in return, i'll be so happy :D

so...one more story, i REALLY hate it when people lie, it REALLY hurts me, it's like taking a knife and stab my hearts, and continuously stabbing it over and over again...especially when you say "oh i just don't want to be in a relationship" then later the next few days you go and get a girlfriend....WHAT? really?? seriously??? you know who you are,...-____- i'm so disappointed in you, i'm done with you, no more. and another guy, I JUST DON'T GET YOU, what the HELL do you want with me? you go and tell me that "you're just REALLY special to me" and keep telling me to go over to your house....but you NEVER give anything to me, you never say to me like "ohhhh i gott youuuuu somethinggg :))" but you always do it to every girls LOL seriously, i finally know why so many girls likes you, cuz you say these stuff to make them think you like them, because in their mind they say like "oh this guy must like me, hes like flirting so much" ...TRUST ME, i'm one of them. but not anymore cuz i DONT GIVE A DAMN SHIT ABOUT IT! gaaawwwddd i dont get why i have SUCH a bad luck with guys....its either THERES A BUNCH OF GUYS COME TO ME and i have to choose one, but i dont wanna just choose just one...or there no guys come to me at all...WTF? i just learned one thing yesterday from a fortune cookie "if you chase two rabbits, both will escape." meaning....if you dont make up your mind and wants to keep all, you'll loose all of them at the end :/ ............and i used to think that guys are so self centered, and only think about themselves, don't care about girls feelings, treating them like their bitch.......but i learned there are still some soft-hearted guy exist :)) and not all guys are assholes..so i'm trying to keep my hopes up, hoping theres a mr. right coming to me :D

see you later :D

Dear Cindy Lee,

today is the day you leave to UCR!!!!! ahhhhh you're growing up so fast, WE'RE ALL GROWING UP SO FAST!! lol, i remembered back in the days where we first met, it just seems like yesterday, it was in CHINESE 1 :D and my first impression of this girl was like, "maan shes so quiet!!! maybe i should talk to her :D hehehe she seems nice" and sorry -___- my first word to you was, "i cant see the board :((" LOLOL!!! well then we started talking alot online, then MORE in person, and the good thing about you is, YOU LOVES TAKING PICTURES!!!! LIKE MEEE!!! AHHHH i finally found someone who takes pictures EVERY SINGLE DAY! and always have a camera with her :D

well thats not the only good thing about you..ahahah another is, I FREAKIN LOVE YOUR HAIR!!!! no matter long or short, it just makes me jealous!! :3 lol like when you had that "hebe" hair from S.H.E OMGGGG THAT WAS SO CUTEE!!!! :D!!

and i'm SOOOO GLAD THAT I MET YOU! cuz if i didnt, i'll be "emo karen" now, i always feel better telling you about whats bothering me, :D

i'm REALLY gonna miss you ALOT LOT LOT LOT!!!

i'll miss all those years in chinese with you :) 1,2, and 3

remember to stay safe

TALK TO MEEE!! if you're bothered!! don't keep it in :))

i'll ALWAYS be there for youu my dear

eventhough we talked less during my senior year and your senior year, our friendship is still strong as ever :))

now lets see if you going to riverside...is our friendship gonna be as strong?? :D hehehe

i think so!!!

always and forever :)

love you

see you soon.

Dear Sandy Chen,

:( both of you guys are leaving!!!!!!! WHYYYYYYY!!! lol just kiddinggg hehehe, i know you guys will come back :)) then we'll have all the fun like before HEHEHE, i remember when i first met you, you said "are you a sophomore!??!?" -________- LOL i look youngggg!!! hehehe thanks, but yea i was a junior :3

the thing i hate...WHY ARE YOU SO PRETTYY!?!?!!?!?!? even my mom said OMG SANDY IS SO PRETTTYYYYYYYYY!!!! ahahaha

just kidding, i dont hate it hehe :))

like i remember we would write on each other's yearbook at the end of the year, and i always say "WHY ARE YOU SO PRETTY!?!? I LOVE YOUR EYES!!!"

then you would write on mine about how jealous you are of my eyes hehe :D

hmmm lets just photoshop ourself, switch eyes!! LOLOLOL jk

takes too much work!!!

we'll just keep taking pictures with each other then hehehehe

WAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH YOURE GOING TO UCD!!!

THATS EVEN MORREEE FAR THAN UCR -_____-

so you wont come back frequently?? :'((

me sadd!!

then you have to take the planee ahahaha

well STAY SAFE!!!!

AND I'LLL MISSSSS YOUUUUUUUUUUU SOOOOOOOO MUCHHHH!!!! hehehe

love you

and see you soon dear :)

so i am... forever alone nowww!!! :'( LOL

It has finally hit me that....

I'LL MISS YOU BOTH SOOOO MUCH!!

today was our last hang out together....

i hope you both will have a GREAT time in college!!!

UCRIVERSIDE AND UCDAVIS :)

PLEASE COME BACK AND REUNITE ON THANKSGIVING!!!

:'( i just wanna cryy

CINDY LEE, WHO WILL I GO TO WHEN IM SAD?

SANDY CHEN, YOURE FAULT YOU WENT TO CHINA FOR SOOOO LONG :'( didnt have that much time to hang out LOL

i will REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY MISS YOU BOTH THE MOST!!!

i'll see youuu guys sooon!!! <3<3

our "goodbye" hugs are not saying goodbye,

they're saying "see you later"...

so i'll see you guys later :) video is coming up for both of you!!

ahhh i need to calm down, i dont wanna cry in the video HAHAHA..

Jerk..

dont say i didnt give you any chances...in facts, i gave you too many, and you keep pushing it away. YOU ignore me when i need you, and you ONLY talk to me when you need me, SO LEMME TELL YOU THIS NIGGUH, IM TIRED OF IT, I CANT ALWAYS BE HERE WAITING FOR YOU TO COME BACK TO ME, AND IM NOT YOUR FRIGGIN MOM OK?? LOOK I KNOW YOU MAY BE TOO "BUSY" TO TALK TO ME, BUT BUSY FOR A WHOLE FUCKIN WEEK THAT YOU DONT EVEN HAVE LIKE A FEW SECOND IN YOUR LIFE TO AT LEAST SAY HI TO ME?? OR ASK HOW IM DOING?!?!? OR EVEN CARE FOR ME??? NOT EVEN FOR YOUR GF? OKAY WOOW -___- REALLY DUDE?? REALLY?? I SHOULD PROBABLY JUST GIVE UP .....ITS BEEN ALMOST A YEAR..10 MONTHS NIGGUH!!! ._____. PLEASE EXCUSE MY LANGUAGE, BUT CANT HELP IT, IM SOOO DISAPPIONTED HOW I CAN BE THIS STUPID TO BELIEVE THAT YOU WOULD CHANGE...I SHOULDVE KNOW...IF IT HAPPENS ONCE, FOR DAMN SURE ITLL HAPPEN AGAIN.. ITS A NEVER ENDING CYCLE!! IM DONE PLAYING YOUR GAME...YOU WIN OK? GOOD BYE, NICE KNOWING YOU.

I'll remember you..

SO...i walked past my sister's room yesterday, and i heard this song playing on her computer..

i suddenly fell in love with this song!!!

then i grabbed my phone and use that app to tell you what the song is called...

then i searched it on youtube, OMG the lyrics!!!

so meaningful!!!

and it makes me cry listening to thiss :3

I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE IT TOOO HEHE :))

ON COLIMA ROAD TONIGHT....

Tonight, on Colima Road tonight
Hacienda Rowland Heights
We're coming up, from Diamond Bar to Walnut
Let's do it tonight....

HELLLLLL YEEEUHHHH BABY~~~ :))

I LOVE THIS SHIT!!!

GOOD SONG!! HEHEHE