I'm just a simple girl...

I'm just a simple girl who wants to be loved, and friendships. I have a very fragile heart, and can get sad easily, i admit, i'm not strong. I am a very forgiving person. All you need to say is say a simple word "sorry" then i'll forgive you, because i believe in second chances, i believe you'll fix your mistake, i will never give up on you, even if you don't fix your mistake, i'm sure one day you will, so i keep giving you chances. HOWEVER, if i keep giving you chances and YOU keep pushing me away and ignore those chances and continue to take me for granted, YOU'RE DONE. i LOVE giving surprises to my friends and tell them everyday that i love them and miss them, and i'm not just saying it cuz i want to, i say it cuz deep in my heart i REALLY love my friends and miss them to DEATH! they are everything to me, AND super important like a family. My friends ARE my family. and i also dont expect things in return from them, i don't expect them to say "i love you" to me or "i miss you" to me, because i love surprises, it's just expecting things in return....isn't that special, you know what i mean? it's like making them say it, like it's not from their heart, they just say it cuz you said it to them. But if you really shows that its from your heart and give me something back in return, i'll be so happy :D

so...one more story, i REALLY hate it when people lie, it REALLY hurts me, it's like taking a knife and stab my hearts, and continuously stabbing it over and over again...especially when you say "oh i just don't want to be in a relationship" then later the next few days you go and get a girlfriend....WHAT? really?? seriously??? you know who you are,...-____- i'm so disappointed in you, i'm done with you, no more. and another guy, I JUST DON'T GET YOU, what the HELL do you want with me? you go and tell me that "you're just REALLY special to me" and keep telling me to go over to your house....but you NEVER give anything to me, you never say to me like "ohhhh i gott youuuuu somethinggg :))" but you always do it to every girls LOL seriously, i finally know why so many girls likes you, cuz you say these stuff to make them think you like them, because in their mind they say like "oh this guy must like me, hes like flirting so much" ...TRUST ME, i'm one of them. but not anymore cuz i DONT GIVE A DAMN SHIT ABOUT IT! gaaawwwddd i dont get why i have SUCH a bad luck with guys....its either THERES A BUNCH OF GUYS COME TO ME and i have to choose one, but i dont wanna just choose just one...or there no guys come to me at all...WTF? i just learned one thing yesterday from a fortune cookie "if you chase two rabbits, both will escape." meaning....if you dont make up your mind and wants to keep all, you'll loose all of them at the end :/ ............and i used to think that guys are so self centered, and only think about themselves, don't care about girls feelings, treating them like their bitch.......but i learned there are still some soft-hearted guy exist :)) and not all guys are assholes..so i'm trying to keep my hopes up, hoping theres a mr. right coming to me :D

see you later :D

Dear Cindy Lee,

today is the day you leave to UCR!!!!! ahhhhh you're growing up so fast, WE'RE ALL GROWING UP SO FAST!! lol, i remembered back in the days where we first met, it just seems like yesterday, it was in CHINESE 1 :D and my first impression of this girl was like, "maan shes so quiet!!! maybe i should talk to her :D hehehe she seems nice" and sorry -___- my first word to you was, "i cant see the board :((" LOLOL!!! well then we started talking alot online, then MORE in person, and the good thing about you is, YOU LOVES TAKING PICTURES!!!! LIKE MEEE!!! AHHHH i finally found someone who takes pictures EVERY SINGLE DAY! and always have a camera with her :D

well thats not the only good thing about you..ahahah another is, I FREAKIN LOVE YOUR HAIR!!!! no matter long or short, it just makes me jealous!! :3 lol like when you had that "hebe" hair from S.H.E OMGGGG THAT WAS SO CUTEE!!!! :D!!

and i'm SOOOO GLAD THAT I MET YOU! cuz if i didnt, i'll be "emo karen" now, i always feel better telling you about whats bothering me, :D

i'm REALLY gonna miss you ALOT LOT LOT LOT!!!

i'll miss all those years in chinese with you :) 1,2, and 3

remember to stay safe

TALK TO MEEE!! if you're bothered!! don't keep it in :))

i'll ALWAYS be there for youu my dear

eventhough we talked less during my senior year and your senior year, our friendship is still strong as ever :))

now lets see if you going to riverside...is our friendship gonna be as strong?? :D hehehe

i think so!!!

always and forever :)

love you

see you soon.

Dear Sandy Chen,

:( both of you guys are leaving!!!!!!! WHYYYYYYY!!! lol just kiddinggg hehehe, i know you guys will come back :)) then we'll have all the fun like before HEHEHE, i remember when i first met you, you said "are you a sophomore!??!?" -________- LOL i look youngggg!!! hehehe thanks, but yea i was a junior :3

the thing i hate...WHY ARE YOU SO PRETTYY!?!?!!?!?!? even my mom said OMG SANDY IS SO PRETTTYYYYYYYYY!!!! ahahaha

just kidding, i dont hate it hehe :))

like i remember we would write on each other's yearbook at the end of the year, and i always say "WHY ARE YOU SO PRETTY!?!? I LOVE YOUR EYES!!!"

then you would write on mine about how jealous you are of my eyes hehe :D

hmmm lets just photoshop ourself, switch eyes!! LOLOLOL jk

takes too much work!!!

we'll just keep taking pictures with each other then hehehehe

WAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH YOURE GOING TO UCD!!!

THATS EVEN MORREEE FAR THAN UCR -_____-

so you wont come back frequently?? :'((

me sadd!!

then you have to take the planee ahahaha

well STAY SAFE!!!!

AND I'LLL MISSSSS YOUUUUUUUUUUU SOOOOOOOO MUCHHHH!!!! hehehe

love you

and see you soon dear :)

so i am... forever alone nowww!!! :'( LOL

It has finally hit me that....

I'LL MISS YOU BOTH SOOOO MUCH!!

today was our last hang out together....

i hope you both will have a GREAT time in college!!!

UCRIVERSIDE AND UCDAVIS :)

PLEASE COME BACK AND REUNITE ON THANKSGIVING!!!

:'( i just wanna cryy

CINDY LEE, WHO WILL I GO TO WHEN IM SAD?

SANDY CHEN, YOURE FAULT YOU WENT TO CHINA FOR SOOOO LONG :'( didnt have that much time to hang out LOL

i will REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY MISS YOU BOTH THE MOST!!!

i'll see youuu guys sooon!!! <3<3

our "goodbye" hugs are not saying goodbye,

they're saying "see you later"...

so i'll see you guys later :) video is coming up for both of you!!

ahhh i need to calm down, i dont wanna cry in the video HAHAHA..

Jerk..

dont say i didnt give you any chances...in facts, i gave you too many, and you keep pushing it away. YOU ignore me when i need you, and you ONLY talk to me when you need me, SO LEMME TELL YOU THIS NIGGUH, IM TIRED OF IT, I CANT ALWAYS BE HERE WAITING FOR YOU TO COME BACK TO ME, AND IM NOT YOUR FRIGGIN MOM OK?? LOOK I KNOW YOU MAY BE TOO "BUSY" TO TALK TO ME, BUT BUSY FOR A WHOLE FUCKIN WEEK THAT YOU DONT EVEN HAVE LIKE A FEW SECOND IN YOUR LIFE TO AT LEAST SAY HI TO ME?? OR ASK HOW IM DOING?!?!? OR EVEN CARE FOR ME??? NOT EVEN FOR YOUR GF? OKAY WOOW -___- REALLY DUDE?? REALLY?? I SHOULD PROBABLY JUST GIVE UP .....ITS BEEN ALMOST A YEAR..10 MONTHS NIGGUH!!! ._____. PLEASE EXCUSE MY LANGUAGE, BUT CANT HELP IT, IM SOOO DISAPPIONTED HOW I CAN BE THIS STUPID TO BELIEVE THAT YOU WOULD CHANGE...I SHOULDVE KNOW...IF IT HAPPENS ONCE, FOR DAMN SURE ITLL HAPPEN AGAIN.. ITS A NEVER ENDING CYCLE!! IM DONE PLAYING YOUR GAME...YOU WIN OK? GOOD BYE, NICE KNOWING YOU.

I'll remember you..

SO...i walked past my sister's room yesterday, and i heard this song playing on her computer..

i suddenly fell in love with this song!!!

then i grabbed my phone and use that app to tell you what the song is called...

then i searched it on youtube, OMG the lyrics!!!

so meaningful!!!

and it makes me cry listening to thiss :3

I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE IT TOOO HEHE :))

ON COLIMA ROAD TONIGHT....

Tonight, on Colima Road tonight
Hacienda Rowland Heights
We're coming up, from Diamond Bar to Walnut
Let's do it tonight....

HELLLLLL YEEEUHHHH BABY~~~ :))

I LOVE THIS SHIT!!!

GOOD SONG!! HEHEHE

DAY 1 BACK TO SCHOOL!!

soo...today was a PRETTY SUCKY DAY...

-__________________________________-

HERES WHAT HAPPENED (AND I HAVE NOT FINISH RANTING ABOUT IT ON FB)

....

i got to school AN HOUR EARLY BEFORE MY CLASS STARTS! I COULD NOT FUDGING FIND PARKING!

....i suck at finding a spot

when i found one...this PERSON WAS GIVING IT TO ME, HE LEAD ME THE WAY TO HIS CAR..(thank gawd theres a nice guy..)

so he backed up...i was so happy that i found a spot!!! yay!!

THEN GUESS WHAT!? A GUY BEHIND ME SPEED UP, AND PARKED MY SPOT

I WAS LIKE FUUUUUUU........YOUU JERKKK!!!

UGHHH

DUMBSHIT MAN!

A;LSKDJF;ALKSDJF; I WAS SO PISSED

I CAN IMAGINE STEAM COMING OUT OF MY HEAD! I TURNED THE AC ON HIGH!!

GRRRRR!!!

IT WAS A BAD DAY! ..BACK FIRST DAY

BUT THEN.......

hehehe a hang out with cindy lee :)

made it feel better!! and HEHEHE MY EYES!! :))

I LOVE THIS MACHINE, I WANNA TAKE IT HOME! hahahaha

something that touches my heart...

his story is so sad/touching

i was amazed that he a great voice and talent!!!

waaah i was almost in tear when watching this tooo!!!

Charles Ke,

:) i'm glad my post made you feel better

wish you the best

:D

and good luck hehe

remember to look forward.

Catching up with PEARLLUI :)

PEARL LUI <3

girlll!!! i miss you!! hahaha i think its fate that brought us back together

UNEXPECTED meeting LOL

haha i love how auntie jackie (your mom) said "i've dream of seeing you guys again!!! then today we saw you" LOL!!

but yea it's good seeing you again! ahaha

i'm sorry i'm blind .__. did not see you, and walked right past you LOL

then you said PSST KAREN! then i looked then i was like OHHHH!!! and you texted me to saying

"maxim :)"

and THATS WHAT YOU MEANT! LOL :) i'm sorry

but yes, it was GREAT catching up with you today!

our parents catched up too LOL spent 3 hours at maxim o.O can you believe that!? ahahaha

then our mom brought up our childhood memories...

i still remembered the first time you slept over at my house at 4th grade...

oh my, you WOKE ME UP EARLY IN THE MORNING TO SWIM AT MY BACKYARD!!

LOL at 8AM woman!!

wtheckk

lol!!!

annnddd cant wait to take more pictures with you at the concert we're soon going on aug 9? i believe? LOLOL!! :) see you soon <3

i realized no matter how many times we stop talking with each other...or havent see each other for a long time,

one day we will eventually meet anywhere LOL and start talking and catching up LOL

we can and will NEVER lose in touch with each other :)

i like that.

i miss you!!! and see you soon!!!

Move on...

Charles Ke,

i hope you're reading this..

I know the person who you liked before or your ex gf/bf affects how you think and how you act today...and you'll be afraid to do stuff you did before because you're scared of that problem will happen again, I'VE HEARD THIS MANY TIMES, EVERYWHERE!! PLEASE JUST MOVE ON...IT'S ANNOYING! DO NOT BRING UP YOUR PAST, LOOK FORWARD, KEEP MOVING FORWARD. i'm serious, this BUGS ME!! if you keep bring up your past, YOU'LL NEVER OVERCOME YOUR FEAR, so please look forward! because if you keep staying like this in the same spot, you'll NEVER be able to find your happiness. NOT EVERYONE is the same...if the person you liked before or your ex did that to you, IT DOESN'T MEAN other people will do it to you too...

LOOK,

i know you're scared that'll happen again, and oh you'll never love someone again...

._____.

honestly, it's because you keep bringing her up and saying

SHE DID THIS TO ME, THATS WHY I CANT BE THE PERSON I AM BEFORE

-____-

thats just an excuse

and i HATE people that keep bringing up their past saying that "i'm not the person i was before, because of what she did" .....

DUDE COME ON!!

EVEN THOUGH SHE AFFECTED YOU...

you STILL have to overcome the past,

ACCEPT IT.AND MOVE ON.

IT ANNOYS ME HOW PEOPLE KEEP COMPARING ALL THESE PEOPLE TO THE PERSON THEY LIKED BEFORE OR THEIR EX.

OPEN YOUR EYES PLEASE

海闊天空..

if you cannot let go of your past, you cannot start a new one

so why not just

start a new life?

you know what i mean?...

sorry, i'm not trying to be mean....i'm trying to help...

and i know this post might sound a bit mean, sorry, just trying to help...cuz your whole blog just annoys me how sometimes you keep bringing her up.

i hope you take my advice. and i hope you really listens.

up to you, your choice.

Why am i trying so hard?

Guys, i know how many times you guys told me to FORGET ABOUT THAT JERK!! FORGET ABOUT THAT ASSHOLE. and "i don't know why you're still with him, just DUMP HIM ALREADY, YOU DONT DESERVED TO BE TREATED THIS WAY, I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT YOU SEE IN HIM"

...

guys, relax, calm down

i know i dont deserves to be treated this way

and i know you guys care for me

and dont want me to get hurt again

trust me,

i believe in him

i know this is worth it

i'm not saying i don't listen to you guys,

i do

i appreciate that you guys care and want me to be happy

and everytime i tell you about him only like 1 out of 10 times are happy LOL

i know that.

but you gotta trust me

i know and i feel that this will be a happy ending

i believe in him and i wont regret a thing :)

i wont regret waiting this long

:)

thanks, I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!

what would i do without you guys!!!!

even though he does not make time for me like you guys, i'll still love him as much

you guys always say to him, me and him are lust not love...

i know how he feels, and i'm sure he does love, just probably not as much as i love him

but i know he does.

:)

so just trust me, i'll be fine.

People who put smile on my face everyday~~

JOSH :)

i love you hunni!!!

even thought we may fight and argue each time we talk, and you always act like a kid and start getting mad at me, i still love you no matter what.

love you MORE and more each day.

it's amazing how just your simple saying of "love you"

can brighten up my WHOLE DAY

and make me instant happy.

you're the only one and will ALWAYS be the only one who can be able to do that

i love you

and thanks for putting a smile on my face after making me cry LOLOL

or mad..

i love you forever and ever.

CINDAYLAY!!

<3<3<3

i LOVE YOU!!

AND I'LL MISS YOU WHEN YOU GO TO RSIDE!

but i promise i will try to visit you at your dorm!! might sleep over too LOLOL jk!!

you and your little cousins are so adorable!!!

i wanna go to your house everyday and just hang out there!! haha

and thanks so much for making me feel better after i tell you the whole story of how childish he is -_____-

ugh!

but after telling you, i feel SO MUCH BETTER!!

thanks so much for supporting me all the way

YOU'RE THE BEST!

the BEST OF THE BESTEST!!! :))

no matter how much i say "i love you" to you, thats still not enough LOLOL!!

we need to take cue pictures soon and eat at souplantation one more time

before you go to rside!!!

cuz THERES NO YUMMY FOOD LIKE THIS THERE! LOLOL jk

i bet theres more yummy salad there too -___-

now when i look at salad, i think of souplantation

and when i think of souplantation, i thought of you :))

make sure we will still talk talk talk and keep in touch on fb when you go to rside!!!

:)

i'll miss ya! and i'll wait for you to come back!!!

and HANG WITH MEE!!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE you :)

and good luck at rside. stay safe. dont get rape

if you do, tell me who it is and i'll haunt them down and point a gun at them! >:(

LITTLE BRO! BEN!!!

WE TALK EVERY SINGLE DAYYY!!!! NON STOP AHAHA

you and your crazy story, makes me laugh so hard

like seriously, i always have a smile on my face when talking to you LOLOL

i feel like a retard smiling so big

even my mom was like "wth why are you smiling and laughing at the computer"

LOL ahhhh!! look what you did!!

we talk about the MOST RANDOMNESS, RIDICULOUS, DISGUSTING THINGS!! LOLOL

(i just noticed that LOLOL)

i mean, LOOK!!! telling each other "i gotta poop now!!! and FLUSHHHHHH IT DOWN!! ITS GREEN POOP!!" -___- TMI???!? lol

and i feel like i can tell you EVERYTHINGGG!!!!

no need to hide stuff from you LOLOL

you'll always help me with that asshole's problem

and i'll always help you with that bitch's problem

lol we're so alike!!! in many ways...i think?

like siblings!!! ahahahaha

hmm we can be siblings if your mandarin LOL

cuz liu is mandarin for lau!! :))

oh well HAHAHA :))

we'll always have each other's back

look out for each other like siblings!! hehe

and GOOD LUCK FINDING YOUR HOTTIE :))

karissaaaa~ WAI!

lol

i love how everyone calls you by your chinese name "wai"

and when dad answer the phone in his room, he goes "wai??" and you answer "WHAAAT??" then you go to his room and found out that he isnt calling you LOL!!! thats funnyy

its a cool name though :P

and even though we might not get along before

we get along pretty well now

probably cuz we're a bit older now

take things more ....seriously?

hahaha

but i love spending every second of my life with you, driving you around

to school

to your friend's...

and always support each other :) thanks

My Biggest Fear..

one of my greatest fear is that you’ll get bored of me and leave me. so i guess i’m gonna try and do my best to make you not bored of me. i don’t really know how i’d do it but i’ll think of something. i just don’t want you leave me. i know this sounds selfish, but you’re mine. i feel so clingy sometimes. oh well. that’s how i am. deal with it. just don’t get bored with me. please

I love you and ONLY you

Hello Half and Half

YAY

HALF AND HALF!!

so i went for "pre-training" for half and half today

and they gave me the menu and go home and memorize it

and come back tomorrow and start working!!

I'M SO HAPPY!!!

my FIRST WORK EVERRRR!!!

so happy that i dont even think i can memorize it

:/

HAHAHA but its okay, i got this.

so i've been memorizing for the past....3 hours already

i kinda got something, but not all

SO TO THE CUSTOMERS TOMORROW, PLEASE DO NOT RUSH ME!!!

I'M A NEWBIES!!!

LET ME DO MY WORK!! >:(

and there was SOOOOO MANY PEOPLE TODAY!!

ahhhh i hope i can handle tomorrow's training from

1:30-7:30 :)

WISH ME LUCK!!

Hi Charles :) and YAY HALF AND HALF!!!

Hi charles ke,

hahaha yea its okay :))

andd HALF AND HALF!! omg THANKS FOR CALLING ME

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY THAT MADE ME!!! HEHEHE

SO I HAVE AN INTERVIEW AND TRAINING TOMORROW AT HALF AND HALF TEA HOUSE EXPRESS AT 2PM!!!! ahhhh im so excited

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I WANNA WORK THERE

ITS LIKE A DREAM COME TRUE!!

AHHHHH THANKYOU THANKYOU THANKYOUUU!!! :))

IKEA ADVENTURE with CINDYLEE!

fun day with CINDYLEE today!!! :))

thanks for the fun fun day

to be honest, i havent have this much fun for a LONGG time!!

so TODAY is also my mom's birthday

so i feel badd for going out the whole day hanging out with cindy :/

but its okay, because this morning, AT 8AM! i took my mom to work :))

and after hanging out with cindy, i pick her up from work.
sooo we baked cookies =__= turned out FLAT! lol like pancakes!!

ahhh we shouldve bought thee lazy one where the INGREDIENTS ARE ALREADY THERE CINDY!!! only add eggs and butter ...

but we made the HOMEMADE ones instead LOL aiyaya!!

thennnn we watched

FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS

its a good movie :)) i like it

i would watch it again if i can.

if you havent watch it, please watch it, i would highly recommend this movie :)

then when i got home,

hunni came over!!!

stay till 1:50..ALMOST 2AM!! o.o

Hunni :)

i MISS YOU!

i know we haven't been hanging out for a long time

because you're busy...

and everytime when we plan a hangout, we always have to cancel it

either because we ended up fighting because of it

i know i get impatient sometimes

because you said "i dono" when i ask you what time are we going out...when you REALLY don't know

hunni, if you don't know, then dont ask me to hang out

just tell me when you're sure

and i'm sorry for being a "bitch" at you when you said you dont know when we're going

its just that, whenever i make plans with people, i always know the exact time

but you, you just tell me simply "i dont know"

you ALWAYS say that

its the BIGGEST thing i hate about you...

but still love you so much no matter what

i don't just back out because of one thing i hate.

Even though we fight everyday and i stop talking to you for a while, because i wanted you to calm down...

yes, dude YOU SERIOUSLY NEEDS TO CALM YO TITTIES!

yep. I know sometimes i can be BIPOLAR, but thats how girls are, mood swing!!

but you...

to be honest, you really get mad SUPER EASILY, its like you have your "man period?" or what?..

i dont know

you need to learn HOW TO CALM DOWN! TAKE A CHILL PILL!!

YOU'RE LIKE A LITTLE KID!!

okay gonna stop right here before i get even more mad.

i know you have your problems, AND i'm trying my best to help you

I HAVE MY OWN problems to deal with too, so dont keep yelling at me "HURRY UP BITCH"..

-____- have YOU even help me before? no i dont think so

so stop telling me that, its not FAIR!

WEAR THE PANTS!

A real relationship has...

fights. Has trust. Has faith. Has tears. Has hurt. Has sweet smiles. Has genuine laughter. Has snorts because of the laughter. Has weird, stupid, unnecessary arguments. Has patience. Has communication. Has secrets. Has jealousy. And most importantly, love. This is all just a mess that turns out… beautiful & an experience that can never be forgotten.

i love you hunni