IKEA ADVENTURE with CINDYLEE!

fun day with CINDYLEE today!!! :))

thanks for the fun fun day

to be honest, i havent have this much fun for a LONGG time!!

so TODAY is also my mom's birthday

so i feel badd for going out the whole day hanging out with cindy :/

but its okay, because this morning, AT 8AM! i took my mom to work :))

and after hanging out with cindy, i pick her up from work.
sooo we baked cookies =__= turned out FLAT! lol like pancakes!!

ahhh we shouldve bought thee lazy one where the INGREDIENTS ARE ALREADY THERE CINDY!!! only add eggs and butter ...

but we made the HOMEMADE ones instead LOL aiyaya!!

thennnn we watched

FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS

its a good movie :)) i like it

i would watch it again if i can.

if you havent watch it, please watch it, i would highly recommend this movie :)

then when i got home,

hunni came over!!!

stay till 1:50..ALMOST 2AM!! o.o

Hunni :)

i MISS YOU!

i know we haven't been hanging out for a long time

because you're busy...

and everytime when we plan a hangout, we always have to cancel it

either because we ended up fighting because of it

i know i get impatient sometimes

because you said "i dono" when i ask you what time are we going out...when you REALLY don't know

hunni, if you don't know, then dont ask me to hang out

just tell me when you're sure

and i'm sorry for being a "bitch" at you when you said you dont know when we're going

its just that, whenever i make plans with people, i always know the exact time

but you, you just tell me simply "i dont know"

you ALWAYS say that

its the BIGGEST thing i hate about you...

but still love you so much no matter what

i don't just back out because of one thing i hate.

Even though we fight everyday and i stop talking to you for a while, because i wanted you to calm down...

yes, dude YOU SERIOUSLY NEEDS TO CALM YO TITTIES!

yep. I know sometimes i can be BIPOLAR, but thats how girls are, mood swing!!

but you...

to be honest, you really get mad SUPER EASILY, its like you have your "man period?" or what?..

i dont know

you need to learn HOW TO CALM DOWN! TAKE A CHILL PILL!!

YOU'RE LIKE A LITTLE KID!!

okay gonna stop right here before i get even more mad.

i know you have your problems, AND i'm trying my best to help you

I HAVE MY OWN problems to deal with too, so dont keep yelling at me "HURRY UP BITCH"..

-____- have YOU even help me before? no i dont think so

so stop telling me that, its not FAIR!

WEAR THE PANTS!

A real relationship has...

fights. Has trust. Has faith. Has tears. Has hurt. Has sweet smiles. Has genuine laughter. Has snorts because of the laughter. Has weird, stupid, unnecessary arguments. Has patience. Has communication. Has secrets. Has jealousy. And most importantly, love. This is all just a mess that turns out… beautiful & an experience that can never be forgotten.

i love you hunni

i want...

I want to be in a cute relationship. The ones where you sleep over each others houses, not for sex but just to be with them. The ones where there’s always honesty and no secrets lying around. The ones where the person means the world to you, no matter what happens. I’d love to have a relationship like that.

I want to be able to hold your hand everyday. I want you to be the first person i see when i wake up. I want you to hold me and tell me it's okay when I'm sad.

Most importantly i want to be able to see you everyday

hunni :)

fairytale

Fairytale, it all starts from "once upon a time..." and ends at "and they lived happily ever after" :)

i personally do believe that everyone have their "happily ever after"

you'll get marry and have kids right?

it will be happy as long as you're with your loved ones

ok, i know some of you will say, what if something happened!? divorce!?!? died!?!?...well *knock on wood* we all hope that will never happen, but even if you really did divorce, or break up or whatever, you will still find another one of your other half.

THIS WALL AT DISNEYLAND, ITS SOO PRETTY!!! it will be my top 10 wish list, to take picture there with my boyfriend :)

HALF AND HALF!!!

ALRIGHT, PLEASE HIRE ME!!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! I REALLY NEED TO WORK AT THIS PLACE, I WOULD PRAY EVERY SINGLE DAY FOR YOU TO HIRE ME, YOU SAID YOU WILL CALL ME, SO PLEASE DO SO, I'LL BE WAITING FOR YOUR CALL DAYS AND NIGHTS! PLEASE!!!! I'LL BE SOOOOO GRATEFUL AND HAPPY IF YOU CALL ME AND HIRE ME :))

hi cindyy

Hiiii cindylee hehehe i miss you dear!!!

HELLO.GOOD MORNING.I.AM.BACK!

LOL yess i know, i havent been blogging lately :(( i'm sorrryyy!!!!! but i'll try to go back to blogging EVERY SINGLE DAY! and i know all my post have said "I"M BACKKK" LOL and i keep forgetting, BUT NOT ANYMORE! I WILL TRY NOT TO! lol i remember i used to blog at least 2 or 3 times in one day LOL cuz theres soooo much going on in my life and i need to vent stuff. i guess i was just a bit immature lol cuz i complained so much before. BUT NOWWW!!! :)) new karen lau. i dont think i'll complain as much LOL having a 21-years old boyfriend, can REALLY change my life. i start looking at things more deeply and thinking more bigger. :)) but i still hope i can handle my sadness, cuz even though we make up after we fight, it still hurts when we do fight, and it made me cry alot, sometimes i cant even sleep at night, and i wake up with PANDA EYES!!

soooo!!! MR. HONG KONG WAS ON!!!!!! omg THIS GUY. HE IS SO CUTE!! but this year, there wasnt really alot of cute guys LOL...but this CLAYTON LI! hes cute, sunshine smile. ohh *melt* LOL jk, i feel bad for checking guys out LOL..*sorry joshhh* but yea HE LOOKS KOREAN!! AND KOREAN GUYS ARE CUTE!!! hehehe...sooooo cindy and i were watching mr. hong kong, and we were talking about it on fb about whos cute and whos not, whos gonna win. and I'M SO HAPPY HE WON!! LOL at first we thought number 6 was cute, he kinda remind me of arron in fahrenheit, cuz it looks like he have NATURAL eyeliner on!! omg i love his eyes. but toward the end, his hairstyle kinda went off...and it changed my view on him LOL!! i guess HAIRSTYLE DO AFFECT HOW PEOPLE LOOK! ;)

i'm back to posting!!

lol i know i havent blog for a long time, but i was reading all your blog silently :] hehe like your guardian angel? lol i dunno. but I'VE BEEN SO CRAZILY OBSESSED WITH THESE BUNNY EARS COVER FOR IPHONE 4!!! AHHHH WHY CANT THEY MAKE ONE FOR HTC INSPIRE!? i want one so badly!!! these are so cute and i see them EVERYWHERE!!!

Dream High

i totally recommend this korean drama, DREAM HIGH!! i love it so much. The story touches me and its very heart felt and inspiring. because it teaches you lessons and motivate you to chase your dream :]

and this quote from it touches me:

“Sometimes when you feel people are moving on faster and better than you whether its career or relationships. Remember than by moving slower it means you can see much more around you and understand your surroundings better than those who rush ahead"

and it’s about 6 musically talented students who enter a Performing Arts school hoping to chase their dreams and debut as successful singers. :] i hope you guys watches it during your free time, SUMMER!!! :] and enjoy

Is this the end?

I've been thinking alot lately.. will we be together FOREVER? like our WHOLE life? i don't know, at first i thought it would be yes, but now, i don't really know anymore. You do know that i'm a jealous type and i tend to get jealous really easily...and your fb status yesterday made me so pissed, and i didn't know what to do. Some of me want to hold on to you tighter, some of me say.. 算了...karen, 放手啦.

越看你我就眼火爆!!!

I know some of you will think i'm immature for thinking about this too much, or i'm overthinking. I know what i'm doing and i maybe be "immature" but thats just how i am, no one is gonna change that, YOU'RE not gonna change that.

and i realize having a boyfriend isnt that great at all, you will feel hurt ....almost everyday. and youre life will be MORE like a roller coaster. Some day you'll be so happy and love him more and more everyday, like when you go out, it's the BEST day of your life. And you can not go on a day without missing him. and some day, you will feel mad/pissed/sad when you see him.

typical sunday~

It's sundayyy!!! and its a boring day for me. haha. sunday is my boring stay home day :] so what do you guys usually do on a sunday? :] are you all ready for another week of school? i'm not HAHAHA well to you all high schooler, THE LAST WEEK FOR YOU GUYS!!! hehe excited?..well make it last and be happy and cherish your LAST WEEK IN HIGH SCHOOL!! cuz you're all gonna miss it!! and of course I MISS it! and i hope i will be able to go to your graduation :] hehe and i will miss you guys when you go to college!!! CINDY LEE!! :] we DEFINITELY need to hang out before college. and ....CHARLES!! -___- we need to make another plan, THIS TIME, DONT CANCEL IT!!! :[

CHILD MEMORIES~

soo...lets talk about child memories :] hehe, i know EVERYONE, as a child, they like to go shopping at TOYS R US!!! and i remember me asking my dad..."why is the 'R' backward?" LOL!! then i start writing my 'R' backward, and got yelled at -__- ahahahaha.

hmm speaking of TOYS R US...the one on GALE is closingg!! and moving to puente hills!! and so my dad said lets go shopping there to see whats on sale. To be honest, i havent been in there for YEARS!!!....DECADE!!...FOREVER!! so when i went in there, i had this feelings...a feeling of home, a warm feeling that i havent felt for a long long time. i miss it. and i was having a bad day that day too, but somehow, going in that store, my bad feelings just went away and replaced with happiness and joy. It reminds me how much i love TOYS R US!!! and i took alot of pictures hehe...

My boy~

-you always make me sad

-you never say "i love you"

-you dont show your feelings that well

-you always say you'll do anything to make me happy

-sometimes i feel like do YOU even love me?

BUT.....

-you can be the sweetest guy in the whole world!! even though its rare to see you say sweet stuff. but when you do it, it brightened up my whole world and it can last forever!!

-when im sad, just a simple "i love you more" from you will instantly change me into happy hyper mode.

-even though you dont show that you love me, i can feel that you really care deeply inside.

-you DO love me, and i can see that you do when you tell me "sometimes i dont want you to be my gf, because i want to keep you forever and gf/bf don't last"

-your "rawr" means i love you :]

and to my friends: i just want you guys to know, i'll always be there for you. a little song for you hehehe, i will make a cover of it!! :] once i learn it...gimme 3 days

i am back.

yes. i'm back and now i will blog EVERY single day!! I've been feeling down lately ever since i watched that wongfu video about "strangers again" ...it made me think alot. so much. and i cried when watching it too. because the video can related to everyone when they're in a relationship, there are many stages, the first will always be happy and so much love, then it slowly begin to fade away and do your own things. and in between, you will always have your fight. Anyways thats not the reason why i was feeling down....COINCIDENTLY his name is "Josh" too!!! and it just made me cry even HARDER!! cuz he and i do always fight alot, most of you know and i told you guys before, sometimes we never had a normal conversation with out arguing with each other and we never break up, we just ignore each other for a while and take a break. And that day, he watched it too, and he went online and showed me the video and hes like watch it. and i was like i already did. then he was silent for at least 20 mins. and he finally say something, "lets not fight anymore, i dont want us to be like this" ...from that moment i dont know if i'm suppose to be happy or sad..then he went on saying "i've had this happen to me alot, and i dont want it to happen again, and it sometimes made me think that i shouldnt get a gf" then i was sad and did not talk at all, because he went on talking about his ex. Then he keep texting me to ask if i were okay, i didnt tell him whats wrong i just told him not to worry about it. and hes like "its because of what i said right?..i'm sorry, i've over it already" :] well anyways...i know this doesnt make sense LOOL I'M not making any sense now, i'm falling asleep from doing all those math homeworks LOL ahhhh!!! so blogging is my break time :] hehe

and another story that bothers me the most...and it also related to this.
sorry i havent been telling you guys about whats happening at school. recently theres this guy in my math class...he ALWAYS talks to me, and he would ALWAYS text me like 24/7, i'm not even kidding, its like he doesnt even sleep!!! and he told me he likes me, he knows that i have a boyfriend, cuz i always talk about him, and he said he doesn't care!! o.O what does that mean?!!?!? and to be honest, i think i'm slowly starting to fall for him too...ahhhhhh what the heckkk am i doing!?!? i dont cheat, and never plan to cheat and never want to. but i really don't know what to do. i didnt tell you guys earlier cuz i didnt want you guys to think i'm a cheater, i'm really not!! but i feel like what i'm doing is wrong, cuz the way he talks, it makes me want to flirt, its tempting me to flirt with him, cuz hes a sweet guy!!! to be honest, the SWEETEST GUY i've ever met, and the nicest too. and he actually cares about me EVEN more than my boyfriend~!! and i really dont wanna hurt them both :[ what should i do?!!?

I miss you :]

To my two wonderful friend: Amy and Pearl!! I miss you guys soooooo much! and i havent hang out w/ you guys for a super SUPER long time now...since spring semester start. i have my class, you have yours, our schedule does not match. :[ i hope we can catch up one day again!!! and for some reason, my phone is being retarded -___- it sometimes dont recieve texts, but don't worry i'm getting a new phone...probably next month? :] YEEEUHHH!! HTC INSPIRE!! :] and i hope we can all hang out again to make up for my bday hang out :] since you guys couldnt come :'[

Questions.

so most of you knows he's always making me sad, and you ALWAYS ask, "so why do you love him karen?" ...and i always say, i just do, i cant explain it...and well here it is:

"love isnt when you can name a million things you love about the person"..."it is when you CAN'T even find a words to describe how you feel about them" :]

so if YOU can say reasons why you LOVE that person, then you dont really love them truly...

you can only love them, because there are many things you cant describe or say WHY you love them, you just do, its a special feelings you feel inside when you see him/her.

Love/ Hate relationship

So I am pretty sure we are in a "love/hate" relationship. why? well look at it this way, our conversation everday always ended up arguing and fighting, then it eventually....SLOWLY go back to "aww i'm sorry, i love you" . and this picture explains us PERFECTLY!!

My 19th~ and my little boy.

First of all, thanks EVERYONE for coming :] i was REALLY happy when i see you guys, it just reminds me back in the days in high school where i can see all my friends. but even tho i know some of you cannot make it, but it's okay. THERE'S still time :] and i realized i havent been blogging for a long time. sorry. i did not have time to do it, i've been feeling eeither sad or just dont feel good or sick. i've been getting yucky germs this past month.

• haha. so on to the "sad/pissed/mad" part...lol sorry cindy i was gonna tell you that day, but ehh i cant say it in person cuz i'll cuss the WHOLE time!!! cuz it makes me SOO MAD!! so here it is: So WHO KNOWS THIS GUY CAN BE SO KIDDY!! he always have to pick a fight with me, doesnt matter how STUPID it is! i ALWAYS have to say sorry, even tho hes wrong. and i dont mind saying sorry cuz i told myself..would i rather wait until he say hes sorry which takes him FOREVER to realize hes wrong and he wont talk to me. OR would i rather say SORRY and he'll talk to me again?...and i know we had our "little" break EVERY TIME!! its almost like every single day when we talk we'll always end up fighting and arguing....DUDE WHY!?!? WHAT.THE.HELL!?!?!? and this guy...or should i say LITTLE BOY, LOVES KEROPPI ....AND APPARENTLY......MORE THAN HIS GIRLFRIEND!! DUDE WHATTHEFUCCCKKK?? so heres the story of our "little" fight.

• we were talking like always...and he wanted to take me out that day, but i cant go out!! cuz according to my dad, i went out too much these days, so he wants me to stay home that day. then he start getting all like "WHAT.THE.HELL!! YOU NEVER HAVE TIME FOR ME".....dude CHILL OUT! I HAVE FUCKING SCHOOL! AND YOU DONT, SO I HAVE TO STUDY AND HOMEWORKING!! -___- and HE IS ALWAYS QUIET when we go out..like i gotta keep talking and talking. and i am TIRED OF IT! i've been holding it for a long time!!! its been 4 FUHREAKIN MONTHS! if you're shy...then WHAT.THE.HECK!! 4 MONTHS and still shy!? its not the first time we went out together wtf!?. and so i couldnt hold it in anymore and told him and ask him why hes always so quiet. and he CHANGED THE SUBJECT guess what he says?! "keroppi watch?? :]" ........okay dude WHAT.THE.HECK!? DONT CHANGE THE FUCKING SUBJECT!! so i was like ...what? dont TRY TO CHANGE THE SUBJECT..and hes like awww you dont have it?...-______- then i was like YES I HAVE IT, ANSWER ME THEN I'LL GIVE IT TO YOU. then he finally answer why hes always so "quiet" when he go out w/ me...and guess what? its the MOST lamest answer i've ever heard!! i was just like wtf? after he told me. and the "keroppi watch" ..

• .(another story): so you guys all know that few months ago mcdonalds have like those sanrio watches. yep. he WANTED the keroppi one, but couldnt get it, cuz they ran out. so i've been helping him to get one! and apparently my SISTER had one. so i beg my sister can i have it. but shes keeping it, then i decided to wait, cuz she obviously cant keep it FOREVER and will eventually give it to me. and i was waiting for a loonnggg time, she finally gave it to me. :]

• and now back to that story: after he told me why hes always quiet, hes like SO...KEROPPI WATCH? HEHEHE YOU GONNA GIVE IT TO ME NOW!?...and i was like. no. i'm keeping it for now. and HE start going all "bleeehhhh" on me. and he got MAD! and i was like ok what.the.hell!? do you REALLY want that MORE than anything!?!? and hes like YES!! DUHHH OF COURSE! and i was like LOL yea i bet even more than me? and hes like YES KEROPPI IS MY WIFE!........-______-okay, little boy, keroppi is a dude. cant be your wife! ...and i like keroppi too!! why cant i keep it for now, then i'll give it to you later!! sheeesh he just cant wait!!! then hes like FINE I'LL BUY IT OFF ON EBAY, I WAS GONNA GET IT BEFORE, BUT I HAD TO WAIT FOR YOU -___- "had to?" no one told you to wait..... -__- okaayy sorry guys if you get confused between the story, but yea you get the point, we always have our own little STUPID fight!...

• and another thing about this little boy....keep in mind, hes 21! and act younger than me -__-, and he also likes to turn things around on me. like i can NEVER get mad at him, i'm apparently "not allowed" ...-__- and when I'M actually mad and pissed at him, he goes like "WHATTHEFUCK!? WHY ARE YOU MAD AT ME, I DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG" and HE ended up being mad at me, and i'm the "not mad" one....and i ended up have to say sorry. man i just think being single has more....happiness? and WHO CARES if you cant or are not able to share your "happiness" to your loved ones, you can share it to your FRIENDS!!

• ...so shout out to all the single people out there. BEING SINGLE IS THE HAPPIEST THING ON EARTH!!! too much stress to be in a relationship. sometimes i wanna get out of it. like sometimes he makes me wanna STRANGLE HIM AND KILL HIM!! ughh!!